Hey guy hear me out

I have not easy to learn of the procedures as I trying to understand all the things but have hard to understand about it even I don't it with video of tutorials I can't make new mod if only cann do on this list I can make from it.

List making can make easy:

Tools 

Ores 

Block 

Biome 

Music 

Armor 

Food 

List making can make normal:

Small procedure

Particle effects

Resource drawing

Effect Food make 

List making can make hard:

Spawm construction

Tell about mod 

Middle procedure 

Small mods no animations 

Details what it do 

List can't not make very hard make right 

Math understand like  % × or AND  = random  string Java script x y z 

Big procedure 

Animations make 

Models normal and big 

Achievement

Not understand error code 

Does are things I do have easy but the things that i can't not make is for me hard even now learn on school for z.m.l.k school in Netherlands so if want learning something new I can only this software but as you don't understand me then there no way that you will not understand me even not talking about you way but what mean in my own words how I mean for understanding me how try to learn even that have ocular motor apraxia syndrome that is developed new parts like that if stay in cold my hands will turn blue and my motor is on two so I very slowly then you even hard in reading or following the people do in same way advanced tutorial then I won't understand want but if say all this my own words will not be understand if try my best even am more good at voice that you don't like but you can also hear me and I have to read in my mind what you say only then can also understand me if don't want to use voice you can also hear me.

But in other ways on 1.7.10 from mcreator I did better learn and understand how all works but I still love the software that I want try to learn something more how now it different for me to not understand so good on 1.16.4 for mcreator even talk same this way  1.12 to 1.16 on mcreator is really hard to understand then old versions but as see that deleting old version then have hard to make mod so if keep going then can learn nothing in my life to do only game playing and it not good if can not learn something new and do always the same even am 28 years old and handicap so I don't know what else I can do in my life if I don't have social life and that can't not work with handicap people and only understand in normal people but I also don't have friends in my life that don't understand me in both language of how texting but good in voice very good as you won't listen or don't care i say it then better in keep saying same stuff if bad at.